i miss my papa. . .

i have never experienced death of a close friend nor of a family before. i thought i knew death i mean i see it on t.v.,hear it happen to a family member of a friend. i have read about it. but i never realized how real death can be. my father passed away last year july 28. my life seemed to stop that day. when i look at my journal and my planner now, i noticed that i stopped writing after that day because of miocardial infarction it was so sudden we didn’t even have the time to prepare ourself emotionally and physically. i remember the night before he passed away he teased me because of my texting habit. i just smile at him and i didn’t even realized that it would be the lastime i will saw my father smile and hear him laugh because of his joke. death is inevitable and all of us will experience it sooner or later. “una-una lang yan.”  as the saying goes on. i have heard this many times before but i guess nothing can really prepare for that. the pain still comes even if you prevent it. the hurt still shows even if you hide it. the tears still flow even if you hold them. i realized that life is indeed unpredictable. we never truly know what will happen next. what is present today may be gone tomorrow. what you posses now may be taken away from you to next day. i guess everything is temporary,everything is fleeting. but from this experience one important insight i gain, aside from the things i mentioned already, is that rain is part of life, as well as death. and why do they

happen?? because death, because pain make us real.  they make us human, they make us realize that there is somethings bigger than us, larger than life that make us remember that we are human beings, merely a fleeting shadow in this world…

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