just A kiss.,

it was this month when it happend. but first let me tell you my story. i’m a girl with a sweet personality, stupid sometimes i can say. my birthday is in the month of September and so as our anniversary ,September 18.,yah right!!!! i’m excited everyday wishing this month to come.. but why is it that right now i’m not excited ,my heart is not beating fast, i’m not preparing for the gift. and the worst is i dont care at all. well it was this month when that kiss happend. they’re in the province to watch for the game, a badminton game. well of course bonding is included there. they talk, laugh,they bond each other. but after the happinings something unexpected happendsomething so terrible that it broke my heart into pieces. that night they’re all in one room then my guy and the girl is together in one bed when suddenly both of them stop talking then looked eye to eye then that’s it, it happend. its so devastating that the girl is supposed to be my friend. after how many nights my guy told me what happend that night. it hurts so much in my part. i wanted to get angry with him but what can i do i love him so much. all i can do is cry, cry, cry in the middle of the night. i keep on suppresing my feeling about that situation. i told my "BARKADA" and my guy im okey(but im not). the girl texted me and asking for my forgiveness i told her im not ready yet. im not ready for the word "FORGIVENESS". im i selfish for doing that to her. although my guy is sorry for what happend i’m proud of him because he confessed to me. (most of the guys dont have the guts to confessed to there girlfriend )

…so here i am unable to move on from that experience. with that kiss our chances of our relationship patching up is almost impossible or harder than i thought.,.,

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