-18 things to do b4 i die-

1. to be a god fearing person and to be a successful happy person

2. and to say thank you to ECKO for being the nicest person I’ve ever know,the nicest Baby. to thank him for always being there for me. for all the surprise,gift,compliment,joke, and for the moments we shared and for the love you given

   me.

   ,for staying their beside me in good and in bad times especially the times that i really need a person to talk to and to cry on. your always their to guide me and to support me on my decisions your always their to cheer me up, your always their to lend your shoulder to me, and i can say that I’ve met my angel even before i reach the heaven.,

3. to marry a guy that will promise me that he will never hurt me and love me as i am.

4. to forgive those people who offended me in my entire life.

5. to thank those people that accepted me as i am &accept the real me.

6. to see my "barkada" grow independently and how they face life challenges and how they continue to fight in life’s battle. and to thank them in all those years we shed tears, laughters and problem. to say i love you to ivan ,

   nikko

   ,bj, reiryn, shasta, coleen ,princess

7. to dance in the middle of the night & to experience star gazzing,meteor shower and to experience having a bouquet of white tulips and roses.

8. to experience watching the sunset and sunrise in the beach.

9. to eat my favorite chocolate everyday

10. to face my fears,and to overcome all life’s battle.

11. to have my own choldoroid cam(and that’s vintage its hard to find)

12. to witness the wedding of my two sisters and to see their happy faces.

13. to go to

    Europe

14. to design a beautiful wedding gown just for me and im going to wear it on that special day.

15. to experience to go to Batanes with my family because that’s the ultimate dream of my mother to go where my grandpa and ma grow.

16. to have my own house ,lot ,car.

17. to be a professional designer & to have my own business

18. and of course to finish my studies in college.

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just A kiss.,

it was this month when it happend. but first let me tell you my story. i’m a girl with a sweet personality, stupid sometimes i can say. my birthday is in the month of September and so as our anniversary ,September 18.,yah right!!!! i’m excited everyday wishing this month to come.. but why is it that right now i’m not excited ,my heart is not beating fast, i’m not preparing for the gift. and the worst is i dont care at all. well it was this month when that kiss happend. they’re in the province to watch for the game, a badminton game. well of course bonding is included there. they talk, laugh,they bond each other. but after the happinings something unexpected happendsomething so terrible that it broke my heart into pieces. that night they’re all in one room then my guy and the girl is together in one bed when suddenly both of them stop talking then looked eye to eye then that’s it, it happend. its so devastating that the girl is supposed to be my friend. after how many nights my guy told me what happend that night. it hurts so much in my part. i wanted to get angry with him but what can i do i love him so much. all i can do is cry, cry, cry in the middle of the night. i keep on suppresing my feeling about that situation. i told my "BARKADA" and my guy im okey(but im not). the girl texted me and asking for my forgiveness i told her im not ready yet. im not ready for the word "FORGIVENESS". im i selfish for doing that to her. although my guy is sorry for what happend i’m proud of him because he confessed to me. (most of the guys dont have the guts to confessed to there girlfriend )

…so here i am unable to move on from that experience. with that kiss our chances of our relationship patching up is almost impossible or harder than i thought.,.,

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L.O.V.E.

All living things require love to survive, including ourselves.We must first attend to our own needs for love before we can love others. When we neglect ourselves emotionally, we become emotionally toxic and are not whole enough to give love to others. When we change the inner dialogue from the inner critic to that of the inner companion, we bolster our self-esteem and self-respect. Then we are free to nurture others by being the caring, compassionate, thoughtful and kind beings we truly are.

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