i miss my papa. . .
i have never experienced death of a close friend nor of a family before. i thought i knew death i mean i see it on t.v.,hear it happen to a family member of a friend. i have read about it. but i never realized how real death can be. my father passed away last year july 28. my life seemed to stop that day. when i look at my journal and my planner now, i noticed that i stopped writing after that day because of miocardial infarction it was so sudden we didn’t even have the time to prepare ourself emotionally and physically. i remember the night before he passed away he teased me because of my texting habit. i just smile at him and i didn’t even realized that it would be the lastime i will saw my father smile and hear him laugh because of his joke. death is inevitable and all of us will experience it sooner or later. “una-una lang yan.” as the saying goes on. i have heard this many times before but i guess nothing can really prepare for that. the pain still comes even if you prevent it. the hurt still shows even if you hide it. the tears still flow even if you hold them. i realized that life is indeed unpredictable. we never truly know what will happen next. what is present today may be gone tomorrow. what you posses now may be taken away from you to next day. i guess everything is temporary,everything is fleeting. but from this experience one important insight i gain, aside from the things i mentioned already, is that rain is part of life, as well as death. and why do they
happen?? because death, because pain make us real. they make us human, they make us realize that there is somethings bigger than us, larger than life that make us remember that we are human beings, merely a fleeting shadow in this world…
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Top 10 Twilight series moments
These are some of the greatest moments of Stephenie Meyer’s series. If you have not yet read “Breaking Dawn”, the fourth novel in the series, and do not want to read any spoilers, please do not continue reading this. If not, enjoy!
10 - The end of “Breaking Dawn”
“‘We have plenty of time to work on it,’ I reminded him.
‘Forever and forever and forever,’ he murmured.
‘That sounds exactly right to me.’
And then we continued blissfully into this small but perfect piece of our forever.”
9 - Bella and Edward’s first ever kiss from “Twilight”
“I couldn’t breathe.
He hesitated - not in the normal way, the human way.
Not the way a man might hesitate before he kissed a woman, to gauge her reaction, to see how he would be received. Perhaps he would hesitate to prolong the moment, that ideal moment of anticipation, sometimes better than the kiss itself.
Edward hesitated to test himself, to see if this was safe, to make sure he was still in control of his need.
And then his cold, marble lips pressed very softly against mine.”
8 - Jacob imprints from “Breaking Dawn”
“My jerking came to a stop; heat flooded through me, stronger than before, but it was a new kind of heat - not a burning.
It was a glowing.
Everything inside me came undone as I stared at the tiny porcelain face of the half-vampire, half-human baby. [...] The gravity of the earth no longer tied me to the place where I stood.
It was the baby girl in the blond vampire’s arms that held me here now.”
7 - The cliff jump in “New Moon”
“I smiled and raised my arms straight out, as if I were going to dive, lifting my face into the rain. But it was too ingrained from years of swimming at the public pool - feet first, first time. I leaned forward, crouching to get more spring…
And I flung myself from the cliff.”
6 - Bella first sees Edward in “Twilight”
“It was there, sitting in the lunchroom, trying to make conversation with seven curious strangers, that I first saw them.
They were sitting in the corner of the cafeteria, as far away from where I sat as possible in the long room. There were five of them. [...] The last was lanky, less bulky, with untidy, bronze-colored hair. He was more boyish than the others, who looked like they could be in college, or even teachers here rather than students.
[...]‘That’s Edward. He’s gorgeous, of course, but don’t waste your time. He doesn’t date. Apparently none of the girls here are good-looking enough for him.’ She sniffed, a clear case of sour grapes. I wondered when he’d turned her down.”
5 - The wedding from “Breaking Dawn”
“I didn’t realize I was crying until it was time to say the binding words.
‘I do,’ I managed to choke out in a nearly unintelligible whisper, blinking my eyes clear so I could see his face.
When it was his turn to speak, the words rang clear and victorious.
‘I do,’ he vowed.”
4 - Bella’s first kiss with Edward as a vampire in “Breaking Dawn”
“It was like he’d never kissed me - like this was our first kiss. And in truth, he’d never kissed me this way before.
It almost made me feel guilty. Surely I was in breach of the contract. I couldn’t be allowed to have this, too.”
3 - Bella punches Jacob in “Eclipse”
“Finally, he let go of my face and leaned away.
‘Are you done now?’ I asked in an expressionless voice.
‘Yes,’ he sighed. He started to smile, closing his eyes.
I pulled my arm back and then let it snap forward, punching him in the mouth with as much power as I could force out of my body.
There was a crunching sound.
‘Ow! OW!’ I screamed, frantically hopping up and down in agony while I clutched my hand to my chest. It was broken, I could feel it.
Jacob stared at me in shock. ‘Are you alright?’
‘No, dammit! You broke my hand!‘”
2 - The meadow scene from “Twilight”
“‘Isabella.’ He pronounced my full name carefully, then playfully ruffled my hair with his free hand. A shock ran through my body at his casual touch. ‘Bella, I couldn’t live with myself if I ever hurt you. You don’t know how it’s tortured me.’ [...] He lifted his glorious, agonized eyes to mine. ‘You are the most important thing to me now. The most important thing to me ever.’”
1 - The tent scene from “Eclipse”
“‘Please!’ Edward hissed. ‘Do you mind!’
‘What?’ Jacob whispered back, his tone surprised.
‘Do you think you could attempt to control your thoughts?’ Edward’s low whisper was furious.
‘No one said you had to listen,’ Jacob muttered, defiant, yet still embarrassed. ‘Get out of my head.’
‘I wish I could. You have no idea how loud your little fantasies are. It’s like you’re shouting them at me.’
‘I’ll try to keep it down,’ Jacob whispered sarcastically.”
-18 things to do b4 i die-
- to be a god fearing person and to be a successful happy person
- and to say thank you to ECKO for being the nicest person I’ve ever know,the nicest Baby. to thank him for always being there for me. for all the surprise,gift,compliment,joke, and for the moments we shared and for the love you given
me.
,for staying their beside me in good and in bad times especially the times that i really need a person to talk to and to cry on. your always their to guide me and to support me on my decisions your always their to cheer me up, your always their to lend your shoulder to me, and i can say that I’ve met my angel even before i reach the heaven.,
- to marry a guy that will promise me that he will never hurt me and love me as i am.
- to forgive those people who offended me in my entire life.
- to thank those people that accepted me as i am &accept the real me.
- to see my "barkada" grow independently and how they face life challenges and how they continue to fight in life’s battle. and to thank them in all those years we shed tears, laughters and problem. to say i love you to ivan ,
nikko
,bj, reiryn, shasta, coleen ,princess
- to dance in the middle of the night & to experience star gazzing,meteor shower and to experience having a bouquet of white tulips and roses.
- to experience watching the sunset and sunrise in the beach.
- to eat my favorite chocolate everyday
- to face my fears,and to overcome all life’s battle.
- to have my own choldoroid cam(and that’s vintage its hard to find)
- to witness the wedding of my two sisters and to see their happy faces.
- to go to
Europe
- to design a beautiful wedding gown just for me and im going to wear it on that special day.
- to experience to go to Batanes with my family because that’s the ultimate dream of my mother to go where my grandpa and ma grow.
- to have my own house ,lot ,car.
- to be a professional designer & to have my own business
- and of course to finish my studies in college.
just A kiss.,
it was this month when it happend. but first let me tell you my story. i’m a girl with a sweet personality, stupid sometimes i can say. my birthday is in the month of September and so as our anniversary ,September 18.,yah right!!!! i’m excited everyday wishing this month to come.. but why is it that right now i’m not excited ,my heart is not beating fast, i’m not preparing for the gift. and the worst is i dont care at all. well it was this month when that kiss happend. they’re in the province to watch for the game, a badminton game. well of course bonding is included there. they talk, laugh,they bond each other. but after the happinings something unexpected happendsomething so terrible that it broke my heart into pieces. that night they’re all in one room then my guy and the girl is together in one bed when suddenly both of them stop talking then looked eye to eye then that’s it, it happend. its so devastating that the girl is supposed to be my friend. after how many nights my guy told me what happend that night. it hurts so much in my part. i wanted to get angry with him but what can i do i love him so much. all i can do is cry, cry, cry in the middle of the night. i keep on suppresing my feeling about that situation. i told my "BARKADA" and my guy im okey(but im not). the girl texted me and asking for my forgiveness i told her im not ready yet. im not ready for the word "FORGIVENESS". im i selfish for doing that to her. although my guy is sorry for what happend i’m proud of him because he confessed to me. (most of the guys dont have the guts to confessed to there girlfriend )
…so here i am unable to move on from that experience. with that kiss our chances of our relationship patching up is almost impossible or harder than i thought.,.,
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All living things require love to survive, including ourselves.We must first attend to our own needs for love before we can love others. When we neglect ourselves emotionally, we become emotionally toxic and are not whole enough to give love to others. When we change the inner dialogue from the inner critic to that of the inner companion, we bolster our self-esteem and self-respect. Then we are free to nurture others by being the caring, compassionate, thoughtful and kind beings we truly are.
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